But we'll cry and we dance

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 20:46:18 GMT

Mickey Avalon opened the other night for the chili peppers in oklahoma city and they booed him! John responded to this on stage and in the form of a letter to the head of the chili peppers fan site, and it makes me love him even more. what an enlightened person.
I have not updated in years. It is too hot today.

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 14:49:37 GMT

"All in all, I'd say,
the world is strangling.
And I, in my bed each night,
listen to my twenty shoes
converse about it.
And the moon,
under its dark hood,
falls out of the sky each night,
with its hungry red mouth
to suck at my scars."

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 17:57:20 GMT

i cannot believe i am sick again!
at least i have the unbearable lightness of being to cuddle up with.
BARF

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 16:06:31 GMT

i meant to add blood sugar sex magik to that list

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 15:54:08 GMT

the Chili Peppers' show was the single most amazing thing i've ever seen in my life, even surpassing some parts of switzerland. but maybe not. i'm not sure yet.

alex and i tried to recall the exact set list in order on the drive home, but we had trouble then so i definitely don't think i can do it on my own. But the main highlights were definitely John's solo, bien sur, fucking havana affair, POWER OF EQUALITY, NOBODY WEIRD LIKE ME, hey, by the way, and give it away. i don't know why they seem to save their best for raleigh, but i'm glad they do.

the best part is:
CHARLOTTE TONIGHT.

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 18:01:17 GMT

KATE!

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 18:23:03 GMT

is it a crime to love the killers right now? i don't care.

it seems that lately, i like those really catchy but "bad" songs that i'm (we're) supposed to hate because they're by fergie or the pack.
oh well!

i'm getting sick. i swear i have the best timing in the world. i don't want to be sick during christmas/when my mom/family's here!!

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 01:14:05 GMT

-i am currently reading "killing yourself to live" by chuck klosterman aka the author of "sex, drugs, and cocoa puffs" which i have yet to read, but let me just let everyone know that this is an excellent book and is worth your time.
-i wish it was possible for me to be MORE of a nerd.
-i can't figure out why i love some white stripes stuff and all raconteurs things, but can't bring myself to love an entire one of the white stripes' albums.
-i'm finally broadening my horizons and doing things i've wanted to do for awhile, if not only before i died and yet i feel a strange pang of guilt accompanying some of these experiences
-i do not want to read isabelle allende's "the house of spirits" because the cover scares me, and i don't want to read a scary book. i can't even watch semi-scary movies. As much as i love V for Vendetta, even IT scared me a little.
-i don't mind living in greensboro, but reading this book makes me want to live closer to a large city with lots of concerts and at the same time move into an open field where no one's ever been.

i was out of your league

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 16:55:01 GMT

normally, i don't tend to mind that i don't have any friends to actually hang out with. but waiting for alex to get up reminds me just how serious my predicament is when it comes to next year and all of the senior "friends" i may start to make will leave. i am screwed for next year, and this worries me. i want to have friends again!

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 02:08:48 GMT

it's gettin' cold, i'm gettin' bored.

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:37:49 GMT

"Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind. Absolve you to yourself, and you shall have the suffrage of the world...."

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 03:51:49 GMT

joanna newsom is quite possibly the cutest little girl i have ever seen in my life. i didn't think it was possible to be that adorable. apparently it is!!! :]

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 01:51:58 GMT

apparently now i'm being too demanding with your time.

look, i know that sometimes i start dumb fights for no reason, but i realize whem i'm being immature. Oh and by the way, when i say "whatever" it's because i'm too proud to admit that i'm wrong, and i'm too mad over nothing to admit it. i haven't yet had the chance to tell you that in person and it makes me feel a lot better to write this stuff out, not that i'm incapable of telling you personally.
i'm sorry that i'm going through a time right now when i don't have any fucking friends. everyone i've hung out with over the past two years and i have drifted away and i'm alone right now. i'm sorry that you're basically my only friend.
i'm tired of you reminding me that i have no friends. i think i'm pretty acutely aware of the fact and i'm sorry to bother you so much. i know you say that it's not "bothering" you and that you "want to hang out with me". whatever, it feels like i'm bothering you more and more everytime. i know what's wrong with me and what my character flaws are. in fact, i think i know myself better than anyone else. so you can stop reminding me thanks, because i've practically memorized the list.
i honestly don't know how you can consider yourself the only mature one when you resort to reminding me everytime that i'm the one with no friends and that you're giving up more valuable time with your friends than i am with school.
i'm not trying to make you seem like an asshole. the people on here that read this and don't know you are only seeing the bad side of you, but i'm not trying to say there's not a good side. obviously there is or none of this would be happening.
i'm sorry for putting this on livejournal. it's just easier to put them here than to scream them into the phone.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 01:42:27 GMT

I GOT MY LICENSE!!

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
- the first because i'm shy!

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
- i haven't had a REALLY angry moment in like a week. it was a good week.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
- probably alex. or my mom. or god.

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.

(1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
- i'm not sure. i might tell everyone so that i'd get hookups and stuff. okay but seriously, probably tell a lot of people to prepare them. not that i'm important, just..okay.

(2) What do you do with your remaining days?
- i'd have sex and do drugs and travel as much as i could and spend as much money as i could and clean up the environment a lot and spend a lot of time with people and stop caring what people thought about me

(3) Would you be afraid?
- PROBABLY

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust/love.
- interconnection

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save the dog?
- a canal with a dog on the side of the street? and the dog, because i'm going to be a vet without a boss anyways

7. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?
- chances are i'd feel the same way. but if not idk, i'd keep being friends with them obviously

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year to give them theirs back. Would you do it?
- no, and not a selfish no. no because i think that their life was supposed to end where and when it did and it was a life fulfilled. plus, people would take them for granted if i did that.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
- probz

11. Does love = sex?
- probz not

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 13:16:14 GMT

i'm supposed to get my license today
i'm so so so so so so so nervous

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:41:54 GMT

i meant to add "my love" - justin timberlake to that list

i went to take my test today with kevin smith and it was impossible to concentrate on anything seeing as how i couldn't hear and kevin and i laughed. and then after i left, kevin said that mrs poff said that i was the only one in both of her classes to get a 20 out of 20 on the essay!!! taking 15 pages of notes counted for something!!!
i give ap environmental too much credit.
i am tired a lot lately. too tired to argue or yell with people even. it seems like i only have enough energy to do homework and then it's time for bed. i'm scared that this is the way it'll be all year. :[
i got my hair cut real short again!

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 14:47:48 GMT

i'm getting a haircut today and i think i'm going to go at least as short as it was at the beginning of summer, but i'm not getting my bangs fucked up again, not to worry.
there is only one week left until i have my license.

the worst taste in music - the radio dept.
sprout and the bean - joanna newsom
the crane wife - decemberists
here's to your future - the thermals
reeks and seeks - oh no! oh my!
poppy - tv on the radio
trees - dr. octagon

I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL TODAY TO MAKE UP A TEST!

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 00:56:53 GMT

i'm beginning to like autumn and cold and hate papers and strangling relationships

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 17:55:56 GMT

i got some fresh new kicks yesterday. i am excited to wear them.
i've been on hold with roadrunner for five minutes. i fucking hate this internet and this better get fixed.

today i'm going to my grandparents for a like, uber-early thanksgiving because my aunt from colorado is in town and i'm excited. i have a lot of homework to be doing.

it may seem i cannot make a meaningful entry lately.

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 01:00:48 GMT

i got my lil' baby mazda yesterday and i love it so much. i am excited to drive.

tonight, all of the apus kids went to this lecture on the atlantic slave trade and slave ships and it was probably the most fun i've had in a long while. first, i hung out with alex until emily came to get me around 7 and then we went to caribou and then we drove around UNCG looking for the Curry Center which is not spelled "Koury" as emily and i both believed. ANYWAYZ. we got there with hannah and sam and matt and it was lyke, FULL so we had to sit on the floor on the aisle, which was fine because we like being fire hazards. so that lecture was interesting and i took lots of notes and then emily and hannah wanted to leave at 830 so that hannah could see the office and emily could get us home on time. and thenn matt was hungry so we went to yumyums instead of all leaving and chylled for lyke, 15 minutes. and then leah and britney and brooke all showed up and then it was time to leave so that emily could meet driving curfew and hannah didn't miss any more office! and theennn we went to the car and matt wandered off in search of HIS car and then emily and i talked a lot and then she dropped me off. and now it is time to read ap env stuff. and i am talking like mitch hedberg in my head because hannah has been reciting him all day long. and i like branching out and cold nights with good coffee and talking to people i don't normally see outside of school and college lectures. i even like dirty floors!!

she knew that her life had passed her by

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 01:00:21 GMT

i'm supposed to be getting my car tomorrow. i saw it friday though and i'm totally in love with it. it's a silver mazda 6, about three or four years old and i'm so excited! it's a good thing i only have three more weeks until i get my license!!
i feel like burning lots and lots and lots of cds. i'm reuniting with incubus, or at least a few of their songs i actually liked. :]

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 16:15:14 GMT

i should like, start updating again

i got the cutest shirt yesterday! i'm so excited to wear it!
i never have anything significant to say!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 23:40:47 GMT

i haven't updated in a long time
i'm lonely
i have nothing to do all weekend
i looked through all of my mom and dad's old vinyls tonight. that was fun.
i should read the scarlet letter
i'm not going to homecoming
i've got a new pimple that's killing me
i feel like being somewhere
i look awful
i need an extremely good book to read
i want hannah to come back

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 20:15:06 GMT

the festival was amazing. best thing that's ever happened to me.

i no longer have friends. :]

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 02:52:49 GMT

why the fuck am i so addicted to that new pharrell song? i hated it at first. why can't i turn it off now? SAME WITH JESSICA STAM.